...I was destroyed, I was repaired, well that's how I felt when I wrote my last entry, and it seems my feelings from that have been amplified today, but in between then and now, something else has occured to mix it up a bit. Yes that's right it seems a skeleton from my closet has appeared and is trying to stamp on all the flowers in my Garden of Eden in my little world of happiness. That skeleton that made me feel bad for the last 5-6 months of last year, well maybe not for the whole of that time, but a high percentage of it. In that time, I left myself open too easily and I was ripped apart as a result, as much as I hate to admit it.
It was the same old story, she was playing the guilt trip card, saying she didn't know why I was upset... I'm sorry love but if you don't know that by now after all the times I said how I felt, from the blog I told you to read that was directed at you as a message, but it was there so all could see as my witness that I said it, then you are a very, very, very stupid girl. I would have said woman but to be honest I don't think you have developed quite enough for me to call you that, the way you have acted has proved that.
I am intrigued to know what it is that has made you interested in me again all of a sudden? Is it the fact that you saw the bulletin I posted on my bands MySpace, did you notice that you hadn't deleted it from your friends list when you deleted my profile? Is it the fact that I have a hair cut now and I look more like how you wanted me to look when I was talking to you? Millions of people have said I look much better, so don't say you don't think the same as you were one of the people who said I would look better!
Oh by the way the fact that you made your facebook profile public, no doubt so people like me could see what you put up there has proved to me that you have not changed a single bit, apart from maybe the fact that all you are saying is about me and not about the guy you missed before when we were still talking. When I miss people, I usually stop when I find someone else, but it seems you need to lose somebody else to stop missing the person before, but then you miss the person you just lost, and I feel sorry for the next guy.
Anyways I will stop talking to her now and get back to saying that the reason I wrote this blog was because I wanted to say something, but I didn't want to say it to her, because that is giving her the attension she seeks from me.
Thanks again for reading!
xxx
Song for the day: "30/30-150" by Stone Sour
Dedicated to: Bobby
It was the same old story, she was playing the guilt trip card, saying she didn't know why I was upset... I'm sorry love but if you don't know that by now after all the times I said how I felt, from the blog I told you to read that was directed at you as a message, but it was there so all could see as my witness that I said it, then you are a very, very, very stupid girl. I would have said woman but to be honest I don't think you have developed quite enough for me to call you that, the way you have acted has proved that.
I am intrigued to know what it is that has made you interested in me again all of a sudden? Is it the fact that you saw the bulletin I posted on my bands MySpace, did you notice that you hadn't deleted it from your friends list when you deleted my profile? Is it the fact that I have a hair cut now and I look more like how you wanted me to look when I was talking to you? Millions of people have said I look much better, so don't say you don't think the same as you were one of the people who said I would look better!
Oh by the way the fact that you made your facebook profile public, no doubt so people like me could see what you put up there has proved to me that you have not changed a single bit, apart from maybe the fact that all you are saying is about me and not about the guy you missed before when we were still talking. When I miss people, I usually stop when I find someone else, but it seems you need to lose somebody else to stop missing the person before, but then you miss the person you just lost, and I feel sorry for the next guy.
Anyways I will stop talking to her now and get back to saying that the reason I wrote this blog was because I wanted to say something, but I didn't want to say it to her, because that is giving her the attension she seeks from me.
Thanks again for reading!
xxx
Song for the day: "30/30-150" by Stone Sour
Dedicated to: Bobby
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