Well my worst fears seem to have been realised and just as I was starting to do the one thing I was trying not to do, things fell apart! Yes I gave into hope and once again it has hurt me when the pile of cards comes crashing down, but something is different... for some strange unknown reason I don't feel completely down anymore, I did feel depressed at first and was wanting to kill myself, well maybe not kill myself but I just wouldn't care if a bus came and ran me over... I mean if I really wanted to kill myself there would be no attension seeking nonscence I would have done it without any hastle and the room would have been a bloody mess by around half past 1 this afternoon!
So why am I not feeling down, is it because I don't know 100% if it's true or not? Is it because things other than that are going well for me? Or does fate have something else in store for me that I subconciously know about but have no bloody idea what it is? To be honest I think that maybe it is a combination of all 3, but there is another factor. Someone who know the full story from the start and when I told them what happened they seemed more shocked than me and most importantly showed that they were happy for me when I was happy, and showed me support when I was down. For me I think having friends that good numbs the pain somewhat and I would like to take this moment to thank Holly for being such an amazing friend!
So why am I not feeling down, is it because I don't know 100% if it's true or not? Is it because things other than that are going well for me? Or does fate have something else in store for me that I subconciously know about but have no bloody idea what it is? To be honest I think that maybe it is a combination of all 3, but there is another factor. Someone who know the full story from the start and when I told them what happened they seemed more shocked than me and most importantly showed that they were happy for me when I was happy, and showed me support when I was down. For me I think having friends that good numbs the pain somewhat and I would like to take this moment to thank Holly for being such an amazing friend!
In other news, if anyone saw the Download announcement last night then you would have seen that Dir En Grey were announced, they are a band that people have been requesting for weeks on the forums and now they are saying that that was a poor announcement, can the poor people at Live Nation not please anyone? I was happy with the lineup after the first announcement when Slipknot and Korn were both announced. That's only two frigging bands and I was as happy as Mr Happy in Happyville, Happifornia in the United States of Happiness on a happy summers day! So f*** all those people who want the entire lineup to vary from bands such as Rammstein to bands such as... erm... Rammstein?
Thanks for reading!
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Song for the day: "Feelin' Way Too Damn Good" by Nickelback
Dedicated to: Steve
Thanks for reading!
xxx
Song for the day: "Feelin' Way Too Damn Good" by Nickelback
Dedicated to: Steve
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