A couple of days ago, I was feeling pretty down. I was beaten to the ground when I wrote my last entry, but the last 48 hours have been extremely eventful that I have completely forgotten about those feelings and I am now in bliss and can't wait for certain upcoming events... more so than I couldn't wait for them before...
The whole time I had a question I knew I had to ask, there was an answer I needed, and a barrier stopping me from asking the question. The whole time I was looking for a doorway, and I got close a few times but couldn't get it in there, but then the answer found it's way to me. For the first time in a long time, it was exactly what I wanted to hear, and in a split second I went from zero to infinity! Had I have written a post last night, I would have extended on this more, but I didn't so that's all your getting!
So as a result of last nights events, today has mainly involved looking forward to what *touch wood* is going to be happening over the next few days or so! Yes there are still things I am not sure about, but I can work through those in time. It seems that everything makes me think about it and I am so excited but at the same time nervous, like I haven't been in a long time! I have longed for this feeling since the moment I lost it all those months ago, and my only fear once again is losing that.
I may sound selfish in saying that but I can assure every single person that reads this that I am the last person on my mind right now. I just think that the world has a cruel way of dealing with how I feel and it's about time things started to run without all the drama. I don't want to die of a heart attack after all!
The last thing I would like to address in this entry is that someone made me realise how important my friends are to me, more so than I did before, and due to past experiences I appreciate them alot anyways, so I would like to thank Kim for being such an amazing friend over the last 3 years (almost) that I have known her, and I can't wait to be able to hang out with her and my other friends alot more!
Thanks for reading!
xxx
Song for the day [yesterday]: "Self Esteem" by The Offpring
Song for the day [today]: "Snuff" by Slipknot
Dedicated to: Freddie
The whole time I had a question I knew I had to ask, there was an answer I needed, and a barrier stopping me from asking the question. The whole time I was looking for a doorway, and I got close a few times but couldn't get it in there, but then the answer found it's way to me. For the first time in a long time, it was exactly what I wanted to hear, and in a split second I went from zero to infinity! Had I have written a post last night, I would have extended on this more, but I didn't so that's all your getting!
So as a result of last nights events, today has mainly involved looking forward to what *touch wood* is going to be happening over the next few days or so! Yes there are still things I am not sure about, but I can work through those in time. It seems that everything makes me think about it and I am so excited but at the same time nervous, like I haven't been in a long time! I have longed for this feeling since the moment I lost it all those months ago, and my only fear once again is losing that.
I may sound selfish in saying that but I can assure every single person that reads this that I am the last person on my mind right now. I just think that the world has a cruel way of dealing with how I feel and it's about time things started to run without all the drama. I don't want to die of a heart attack after all!
The last thing I would like to address in this entry is that someone made me realise how important my friends are to me, more so than I did before, and due to past experiences I appreciate them alot anyways, so I would like to thank Kim for being such an amazing friend over the last 3 years (almost) that I have known her, and I can't wait to be able to hang out with her and my other friends alot more!
Thanks for reading!
xxx
Song for the day [yesterday]: "Self Esteem" by The Offpring
Song for the day [today]: "Snuff" by Slipknot
Dedicated to: Freddie
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